I think I'm back for good... and I'll need help and advice, I know you guys don't find me interesting, but any help is lovely...
So I am hoping for a little advice here, even though no one really replies to my posts, maybe you all will this time: my job sucks ass. I can't quite, because I need the job experience. But its horribly boring. Can anyone think of some good ways to make the time pass and make things a little more bearable? I work at Albertsons, I am a cart pusher, of all things... so any advice would be lovely.
There is something I do not understand. Why am I so sad, all the time? There is only one thing that keeps me here on this earth is Todd... without him, I would go jump off the 8th floor of the Education Building here on the wonderful BSU campus... I love Todd with all my heart. I do not deserve someone like him, someone who really cares for me... I've accrued to much bad karma in my life for that. I feel so lost... I need Todd.. he isn't here... I don't see him for 5 days... now I'll go cry.
I love Todd, he is amazing, I should have known sooner. Never before has someone actually taken the initiative, wanting to talk to me and be with me, I always had to force it, and then I found him and I am finally happy.
Why do I feel so damned empty?
Why do I feel so damned empty?
I haven't posted in awhile.I have been pretty busy running around with Tanya and Erik and listening to AFI. God, their new album is SO GOOD... of course, I am quite biased on that subjet because I love AFI. Seriously, you should all check out DecemberUnderground. It is wicked. I have no luck with jobs. I quit Macy's too. Damn, I guess I'll just never find my place. But I couldn't stand the preppiness and they made me take of my fingernail polish.I like haveing them painted. They said I could keep them painted if it was a nice color like pink. And not hot pink THere was no way. And my make up was an issue to. I dropped the black eyeshadow, but apparently blue and dark brown were still unacceptable. They said I was scaring the customers. Whatever. I will just work somewhere else.
Nothing else happening here. Waiting for college mostly.
Davey Havok (of AFI) is gorgeous in the miss murder video....
I have been so busy... there hasn't been a day since I graduated that I haven't played D&D, which gives me wonderful quality time with Mike, Corey, Devan, and Todd. Yay! Silent Hill (the movie) sucked. V for Vendetta rocked, again. I got a job at Macy's, which means I have to drop the goth act for 4 hours a day. Which sucks. They make me wear their "stylish" clothes to show off the season's fashions. But the pay is good. I love being graduated. I love Todd. I wish I could tell him... but he would just laugh. I suppose I should be grateful we are such good friends. I at least have that, if nothing else.
I have graduated high school. It rocked. The party afterwards really rocked (DDR for 4 hours, nonstop! And I beat Mike and Tyson and Corey, which makes it even better). Now its off to college with me.